i don't want to talk about what i learned last year or how i am going to improve upon this year because it's all crap. halfway through the year, or earlier if you just get it, everything decided upon is thrown out the window and this cycle of sameness repeats yet again; even the thought of resolving something at the beginning of the year and abandoning it is all part of the cycle. solutions can come and go as they please throughout the year and i think the novelty of starting new, right at the beginning of a new year, is wearing very thin on me.
my dog died this last year, i got fired, went on a stupid trip that made me feel stupid, didn't spend as much time in manhattan or anywhere near columbia as i would have liked, switched to an even worse job than-dare i say it-chapters and cracked under all said social, emotional and random pressure that made first year look like a breeze. things have got to change, yes, but i know this.
and still,
