i love today. i love this day and tomorrow more than anything else during the year. my sister and i were trying to figure out why we love christmas so much. sure it's neat getting so many gifts but as i get older, i feel more and more guilty about it. but it really comes down to this: a feeling. it's the one time of the year when i want to be seven and careless and innocent and watch wonderful claymation christmas specials. it's also the one time when i really care about my family and wish our family were bigger. it's just us three and, try as people might, it'll stay that way-- our little nucleus-- for a very long time. if all we had were a christmas tree, christmas specials and each other, i am sure we'd get by just fine.
the last few days i have felt really adult and the craziness boggles my mind. no sir, i am not for you. you, on the other hand, why are we saying goodbye without even saying it? i am not prepared to give up.
merry christmas. xoxox
