i started my monologue memorization today. it's so weird. i've read through it three times and i feel like such a rookie. starting out is always rough but i have a killer scream on my side so i think i will be okay.
life is interesting right now. i broke my ass today on the way to school. trying to focus on my essay proposal was rough afterward because of the constant throbbing pain from my lower back down to the fleshy bits. i think i need to get my ice pack again. that really isn't the interesting bit about my life. i don't even know how to articulate how perplexed i am. i sit in my room staring out the window looking for answers and i don't have any. all i have now are intense feelings, superficial or not, and i need them to be released in some fashion. listening to iron and wine will certainly not do that. my mind goes by at a mile a minute trying to figure this out. as for the other, happy christmas and new year and oh! it's my last semester, so will it be figured out by then?
i want to watch love actually and make your present. oh god, i want to be with you right now.
