Monday, May 24, 2010

pin up


all i need now is to learn how to style my hair like a pin up and i am ready to go.
(and to get rid of that ridiculous bump on the one side of my head)

i am kind of obsessed with my new red lipstick right now. it goes on glossy but stays on matte. it's glorious.

today feels like saturday, not monday. my neighbour is lounging (rather loudly) by his pool and all i want to do is go for a swim. we're not close, i don't even like him, so asking isn't an option. but the thought of listening to my awesome summer mix with a beer in hand next to a glistening pool is enough to make me want to be friends with him. his fucking license plate is YUB H8N.

it's almost june. when did that happen? i was just speaking to my grandmother, who is going to try as hard as she can to make it to my graduation, about how grown up i am. "my little girl is all grown up. my gosh you're going to be 22!" i could practically hear the woman choking back tears and my family doesn't really roll that way normally. sometimes i think about escaping to hers for a weekend in july to remember what it was like for me as a child, when i spent months up in the bush, and recapture some of those feelings and memories. i think i could only truly handle a weekend. it's really REALLY boring up in round lake.

i am a cat today. i am sprawled across my bed, in the sunlight, eyes flickering, wanting to close, and i am just there. i have projects, of the personal sort, that i should start or finish but instead i am curling up, folding and unfolding. unfolding will do me some good.