i hate having this many options. don't get me wrong, i love options. if you give me two, i will always find a third and fourth. but what i have here is much too much. and what i want i can't have (twice over) so i'm ready to call the whole thing off. it's probably for the best but i'm not in the business of doing what's good for me these days.
when four months feels like three separate years, there is a problem with my concept of time. absolutely swept away by things i cannot control.
