sometimes i don't know what to say. i often think about how awkward some situations are and how i, at any given time, can talk my way out of making them terribly uncomfortable. i don't know what to say in this case. it's all jumbled and at a point where i think, "do you even care?" it's mostly that i don't care for what i say and transfer that apathy onto you in the worst way possible.
language is tricky and so are its many uses. in one sentence you can say everything and nothing and cause a catastrophe or solve a problem. language is tricky, though i find when i don't say anything at all that is perhaps the hardest part--my hardest part.
am i doing new years resolutions? am i making them this early? no on both counts. the things that people normally try to resolve in the newest of new years i am doing now so why flock with the rest of the sheep and discuss the possibility of a resolution? but in my case how do you solve this tricky problem of an entire personable overhaul? tricky tricky tricky tricky
i am a bad friend sometimes. or for the last three years.
