i'm out. that's it. that big stupid ugly green snake reared around today and i am out. i don't want to feel this way. jesus christ, who am i? nope. i am done. finito. moving on and out of this stupid haze of grey and stupid. yeah, that's right. coherency is for goddamn suckers! i don't want to be like this anymore and that is why i am saying goodbye. it sounds like a break-up. it is. and i am not sorry for it.