this is the worst day out of all the days when trying to kick an awful habit. i don't smoke or binge drink or whatever. it's a different kind of habit. it's one of those things you know is so bad but nothing and no one, not even yourself, can really talk you out of it. i keep my hands busy and try to not think about it. instead i try to think how on earth a bird is a phallic symbol? is it because they peck? i am not convinced of it.
it hit me today that this is my last semester of undergrad or possibly school in general. i saw myself next september sitting at home while everyone else goes off to school. i haven't appreciated my time at laurier until it was too late. where almost four years has come and gone is a mystery to me. i think i was in first year once; and in second year i went to england; while in my third i felt like i belonged to my school; and this year i feel like this wholly complete person. i have always rushed time forward without realizing that it is actually going by so quickly. i suppose i should mobilize now while i have the chance. mobilization is quite necessary, so you should probably get onboard. i think you've been onboard for awhile.
