rest

i finally woke up around ten this morning. my arm covered my eyes, my legs stretched every which way under my blankets, and i tried to keep sleeping but i was still very much awake. i could hear my cat meowing next to me, placing his paw on my cheek saying, let's just stay here a little while longer. i am listening to the andrews sisters. big voices in the background. i wish i had heard this song many years ago because it plucks at strings that i thought were buried away. can i adore you although we're oceans apart? i can't make you open your heart but i can dream, can't i? big sounds. big voices for little thoughts. yesterday felt like friday and today feels like thursday. what a perplexing shift in time. i get free chinese food from my mom's boss becauses i am luminous. i am intelligent and he rewards me with food. we talked about contracts and sailing and just how blue that blue wall colour was. now i am sprucing up my resume to apply to a place down the street from me and a clothing store a few buses away from me. what else can a history major do but provide cultural heritage to the little kiddies? i wish i were in france. i am watching the oddest films for my seminar paper. eisenstein really emphasizes the crazy eyes predominant in his people. those bourgeois bitches.