simple. it was so much simpler then. i crave it. maybe not everything that happened. but. oh god, everything was simpler before facebook, wasn't it? i saw you there, we hugged, i leaned and then we'd walk down the streets of kings. it was cold. my nose tingled. there was hardly any doubt about anything. okay i lied. i lie a lot. we doubted everyone around us but somehow we were still. the chase was all i knew. but. i stopped running so long ago. i can't even remember. the last one wasn't even worth it. grow up. i live like a hermit in my own head. i scribbled on my hand, wrote all over my shoes and then took a picture. deep. we used to attack the bus with our sharpies. kiss me quick before i blink. it's etched into my brain. i carried my camera around in my purse. i never ever left home without it. it will never seem as good as when it was happening. but that's just it. nothing is happening. we are still once more. i broke it so i will take the first step back into this life. it's yours. you are a motivator, you know. it gets me up and moves me around when i want to be static. i am not static.

i miss you.